It was a rough year for me and I don’t like to speak for others but I would guess it was a rough year for a lot of people. However, one thing in life I really try to remember is there is always something to be grateful for.
My favorite book of all time, A Hiding Place, taught me this in a way that I will never forget. I make a point to re-read this book at least once a year for this lesson along with a multitude of others that it offers.
The book is about Corrie Ten Boom and her family’s first-hand experience during the Holocaust. At one point in the book, Corrie and her sister Betsie discover that their barrack was infested with fleas. They take the moment to be thankful for the fleas despite every instinct telling them there was nothing to be thankful for. Later in the book, it is revealed that the extremely violent guards didn’t enter their cells and left them alone because of the fleas. Here is the passage if you want to read it:
I really recommend you read the book if you are interested. Anyhow, here are the things I am thankful for this year.
There are two ways to look at 2018 from a woman’s perspective. On one hand, it was a heartbreaking year. It seems every time we turned around people were telling us that it didn’t matter what they did to us. They called us liars when we were finally owning our truth, they attempted to tell us what to do with our bodies, and they tried to push us to the back burner. On the other hand, I felt an overwhelming wave of support from women this year. Every time I felt heartbroken and like giving up there were women all around me refusing to stop fighting back. Women are strong as hell and 2018 proved that to me.
Oh man, I could go on and on about Zuzu. She’s just a dog to a lot of people but she, at many points this year, was one of the only reasons I was able to function. I really do believe that dogs are magical creatures here for a purpose far greater than we can understand.
As hard as my job is at some points, I did finally get a little recognition for my work. The pay raise was extremely minimal and really the best part was knowing that all my work equated to something.
My grandmother was extremely sick at several points during the year. She made a miraculous recovery and is doing better than ever and it was literally the best thing that happened to me this year. I love her so much and it changed the way that I view my relationship with her and my other grandparents.
My brother’s college experience
My youngest brother started college in August and I was so nervous for him. My relationship is different with him than my other siblings, due to him being the youngest, and I felt so guilty about missing his move-in day. At first, he struggled with being away from home and all his friends and was lonely. However, since he has made several friends and is having a good time. My big sister heart is so full and I felt like I could take a deep breath.
My new apartment is smaller than my old one but it comes with many other pros. I am thankful that I can afford to live here on my own and that there’s a cute park for Zuzu right outside.
Here in Colorado, I don’t have any friends and I have very limited relationships with my co-workers. That makes life hard but it also means that I can begin again whenever I need to without anyone binding me to any previous version of myself. It’s always nice to have the chance to start over.
I hope you have a happy Thanksgiving and here’s to more thankful moments in 2019. Thanks for reading!